I've had something on my mind a lot in the last few months. It's one of those things that just won't go away, so I'm left with no choice but to write about it.
I think I was supposed to be left-handed.
I've always written with my right hand, but over the years, I've noticed more and more things that come naturally to me from the left side.
I think it all started when I was in preschool as a child. I have a sneaking suspicion that when my great-aunt, who ran the school, was teaching me how to write, she put the pencil in my right hand. I was accustomed, in my younger days, to going with the flow, and not questioning such things, and so I became a righty.
That's my theory, at least. But, I've found evidence, time and time again, to support the idea that I should have been a lefty.
The mobility in the fingers on my left hand is much better that in those on my right, for one thing.
When I was first learning to shoot a basketball, I did it left-handed. To this day, when I use sign language with my parents, my left hand is the dominant one.
I can throw a baseball just as well with my left hand as I can with my right. I don't do either task particularly well, but that's beside the point.
When I'm engaged in the obsession I wrote about last week - singing in public - I hold the microphone in my left hand. It just feels right, no matter how weird it looks.
These examples are just the tip of the iceberg.
Over the last few months, I've been thinking about teaching myself to write left-handed, just to see if it's possible.
I've heard stories about how left-handers' brains work differently from those of right-handed people. I confess that I haven't properly researched this topic, but the prospect of answering this burning question that exists in my mind, raises a few new ones.
Would my brain get confused, and not function as well? Or, would my overall abilities actually improve? What would happen if I went against what has become second-nature to me and tried my hand - no pun intended - at being a lefty?
The truth is, I may never know. Learning to write was something I did a long, long time ago.
Kids are sponges when they're four years old, and can learn even the most unnatural things very quickly. For someone in his 30s, like myself, it's not that simple.
So, it may be that I just need to write off the idea of answering the question of whether I was truly destined to be a lefty.
But, I guess the real question is, which hand should I use to write it off?
Thus continues my confusion.
Jason A. Smith covers crime and courts for the Henry Daily Herald. He can be reached at (770) 957-9161, or via e-mail at firstname.lastname@example.org.